You’re Not Good Enough
You’re Not Good Enough
There is nothing on earth that gives me that aching feeling of inadequacy quite like being a parent. I am continually amazed by the fact that I can read all of the books, talk to all of the experts, ask our pediatrician a million questions, and still feel like I have no idea what I am doing.
Most recently, I discovered that getting my four year old into a quality Pre-K program was a far more grueling task than expected. Apparently, if you don’t engage in the enrollment process twelve months prior to your preschooler’s anticipated start date, your chances of actually getting them into a program diminish significantly. Lesson learned… the hard way.
Surely you have experienced that daunting feeling of “dropping the ball”. Or maybe, you’re frustrated because you can’t even find the ball. Or worse, you have completely popped the ball.
We all experience moments that make us feel like we just aren’t enough.
What is it for you? I am sure your mind can easily take you to an instance even bigger than my pre-k woes. Is it something at work? A relationship that’s wearing you down? Have you ever experienced discrimination? I don’t know about you, but I can’t turn on the news or check my social media feeds without discovering what someone elsepassionately thinks about a certain race, religion, sexual orientation, denomination, heritage, or political party. It’s no wonder we find ourselves in a vicious cycle of self-doubt! Regardless of the direction we turn, someone is experiencing feelings of inadequacy. But, what can we do?
In the book of Matthew, there is the story of a woman who, in complete desperation, felt like she wasn’t enough. Scripture makes note of an encounter this woman (a Canaanite) has with Jesus as He is traveling through her city (Gentile land). The encounter is significant because of both the heritage of the woman and the location of the meeting. Canaanites were notorious for being at odds with God’s people. While Jesus was commissioned to bring life and hope to the Jewish people of Israel, at this point in scripture, the tide is beginning to turn against Him. John the Baptist was just beheaded; a clear sign that things were not going well. Following that, Jesus takes a little breather and gets out of the country.
It’s a very interesting contrast: in Israel Jesus was trying to convince people that He was the Messiah, and was being challenged to prove it. But here in Gentile territory where he meets this Canaanite woman, He could not discourage her efforts to serve Him as Savior.
In Matthew 15:21-28 we read, “And Jesus went away from there and withdrew to the district of Tyre and Sidon. And behold, a Canaanite woman from that region came out and was crying, “Have mercy on me, O Lord, Son of David; my daughter is severely oppressed by a demon.” But he did not answer her a word. And his disciples came and begged him, saying, “Send her away, for she is crying out after us.” He answered, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.” But she came and knelt before him, saying, “Lord, help me.” And he answered, “It is not right to take the children’s bread and throw it to the dogs.” She said, “Yes, Lord, yet even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their masters’ table.” Then Jesus answered her, “O woman, great is your faith! Be it done for you as you desire.” And her daughter was healed instantly.
This woman had every reason to believe that she wasn’t good enough. Those that knew her probably even discouraged her from talking to Jesus, because they too knew that she wasn’t worthy. But, something happens when we have brazen faith. There comes a point when we realize that even the crumbs from the blessings of Jesus are enough to cause miracles to spring up around us. Brazen Faith isn’t something that just happens, it’s a lifelong journey. What was it about this woman that gave her so much confidence in her faith? What can we learn from her story?
She was full of wisdom. The first thing she did was address Jesus as, “Lord, Son of David”. Obviously, she knew who he was and knew that He was the man with the answers. Addressing Him as Son of David indicated that she knew He was the Messiah the world was waiting for.
She was full of courage. At first she gets a “no”, but she doesn’t let that stop her. She was desperate for her daughter and knew that only Jesus could help. A “no” wasn’t going to stand in her way. Not only does she keep trying, but she basically throws herself on the mercy of the court and kneels before Jesus. Which also tells us that…
She was full of humility. When Jesus tested her faith, she responded in the most humble of ways. She didn’t demand a great fanfare, get furious with Jesus, or even cause a scene. She simply insisted that anything Jesus could offer her would be more than enough.
The more we cultivate our wisdom, the more courage we find. And, there is no greater act of courage than one committed in humility. When you feel like you’re not enough, humbly tap into that wisdom that beckons you to courageously dine at the master’s table! Just a crumb is more than enough!
By: Hannah White